vent
2004-03-23 -- 7:35 p.m.
alright, it's been a while since ive made an actual entry.There's just nothing to really talk about.I think im starting to like someone, but im not too sure yet.OKAY, THIS IS THE PART WHERE IM JUST GONNA VENT, AND IF YOU DONT WANT TO HEAR ABOUT IT, STOP READING!!! Im really starting to get sick of this house. Im tired of all the stress. and i know not too many of you know exactly why im under so much stress, so im just gonna say it. My mom has breast cancer. seriously. and i have to take care of BOTH of my brothers, cook, clean, and do stuff that i need to get done, my mom sleeps all day and my stepdad is constantly working. and i feel that after all of this, i cant do anything right. because nothing i do is ever good enough for my mom. Ive had to deal with this since about New Year 2003. Thats about 15 months of this. Im really starting to crack. And I found out recently that my dad is in jail AGAIN! Im not at all surprised, he's a stupid drunk, drug junkie. I mean honestly, i dont know how many times as a child he has taken my stuff, pawned it for drug/beer money. and i mean like my bike. he told me it was stolen after i had it for 2 days. but he wrote me a letter recently saying when he gets out he's gonna try to get custody of me and Brian. I'd rather live in a cardboard box with 2 of the sides missing. I dont care if he keeps telling me he's changed. he's always been a stupid, abusive, drunk who will NEVER care about anything but himself. He is the one person in my life that i TRULY HATE!! well i guess im gonna leave it at that. Hopefully my next entry will be a happier one.
